another chilly day
I'm surprisingly depressed today. Not depressed depressed, just having one of those days that make you feel crappy for no reason. I think it's the English paper I'm procrastinating on that's making me blue. x) This time it's Antigone vs. Creon, ding ding ding!
Oedipus had problems.
No, there's a real reason why I'm depressed but I think it's best left unwritten. I just wish she didn't hate me so much.
"It takes a clever man to turn cynic and a wise man to be clever enough not to." - Fannie Hurst. Whoever that is, she's a genius.
The end.
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erin i dont hate you at all. i'm just frustrated because i'm trying to live my life, and i realize taht i fuck up sometimes (its not like you dont) and when you give me a really hard time about it...like its the end of the world or something...i just get really pissed off.
sometimes i wish that you would just stay out of my business and let me live.
sometimes i wish that i could talk to you about stuff but i know i can't because you will find some fault in whatever i have to say. its just the way you are.
i'm sorry if i make you feel like i don't care about you. i really do. you're my sister for christ's sake! how could i NOT care about you.
you're not even on my buddy list....whats your screen name?
lol, my screen name is derHamster81589. ^^
and em, i'm so sorry i criticize so much (i must get it from dad ^^), but like i said this morning, it's because i care about you that i criticize so much. i'll try to be a little better about it. it's just like there's always some new drama, and a lot of the time it's worse than the last, and i'm just like "where did my sister go? what happened? wasn't it just yesterday that we were little girls without a care in the world?"
and sometimes i'm afraid for you because you get lost in so much drama and most of it isn't even your fault, and i wonder if you can still even find yourself in the puzzle. life's too short to just stop caring, god wants us to succeed.
and i suppose i get mean sometimes because it just seems like you hate me anyways. i guess it goes back and forth, where i say something bad, it makes you mad at me, i get frustrated with you being mad at me and i criticize a little more, you get even madder, and it just continues. just one of the many many ways we're different. ^^ we have such different mindsets, and i guess sometimes it gets in the way of civility. i know you still have good judgement and i know you're not an idiot, but sometimes when you just act like you don't care it makes me forget. but neither of us is perfect, that's one way we're the same.
and you can still talk to me about stuff. you just need to let me know that all you want me to do is listen. the ann landers in me is constantly chomping at the bit to dish out criticism and advice and all that jazz, but if it's not what you need to hear you just have to tell me and i'll shut my fat mouth. ^^ i'm sorry i'm such a my-way-or-the-highway kind of person, and i guess sometimes i hold my family members to standards that are too high because i just want the best for them. sometimes i forget that we're not perfect. i'm a little OCD. :D
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